Bilang, overused sakin... It's tint is beginning to fade :( I guess am gonna be looking for a new one. Christmas gift anyone? Hehe :D
Thursday, November 18, 2010
It was a payday, I believe. Ronli, Stan and I were at SM. Ronli's looking for a new wallet then I saw this! I thought it wouldn't look good on me but I was wrong (haha. ako na... and nagbubuhat ng sariling bangko ;p) I loved it the moment I wore it. It wasn't on the list but I bought it anyway. It was indeed my best buy ever! Haha (I say that when I buy anything I fancy)
According to my cousin Nico, FLASH is the acronym of Forget Love And Study Hard. Haha. He wrote that when I was out. I used to stay at their place. Guess what? I didn't listen! Haha. I never erased the writing though until I graduated college simply because it doesn't apply anymore. I've been boyfriend-less for the last 5 years but never loveless ^_^ except now? Geez.
Here's another photo of a random blah. I couldn't throw it without having a copy :)
I love writing, I doodle a lot and I love encouraging myself so I write things for me to remember the feeling of being inspired. It doesn't last long though. Hehe. Anyhoo, I wrote this when I was reviewing for the boards. Haayyy. Boards. Just thinking about it makes me feel tired and ready to give up... but then my life isn't just about me and what I want and what I feel like doing. A major part of it is about people I care for the most. What would they say if I quit when I still have a chance? It's not really their judgement that I'm concern about it's more of what they'd feel. I hate it when they feel sad for me or because of me. Pretending to be tough is pretty tiring but then I'm hopeful that one day I won't pretend anymore. I'll be the toughest there is.
I cropped it this way to remind me that I wanted this.
Whenever I encounter something different and far from anything positive, I lose track. I sometimes become immobile. That's one thing I've learned about me which is really something I couldn't be proud of. So I made a list of all the things that I wanted to achieve and do. One of which is this :D
At this point, I couldn't feel the desire to want this yet (maybe because I failed once and it's the most depressing feeling... Icky I know) but I'm sure that I will when I start working for it. (I will start reviewing again next week :l) I just needed more time to shut myself from the feeling then I'll be back to the old self who had this dream.
You can do it E! :D
Goodbye for now :D xoxo
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Just had dinner and mom was talking about their m21 bonding with her GS batch mates. She told me about how one of them got drunk and that they stayed there 'til 3am. My mom, not really being a party person told me her insights on things like that. (which is mostly, erm... negative? haha) I was just listening the whole time (which is unlikely of me ;p) and imagine the look in my face... I was like telling myself... hey, I never got drunk... then I remembered... shit! I did... once... or maybe twice... Waaaah! It was the most awkward moment ever! Haha! but then, to keep it cool I just shared our m21 experience, what we availed and good thing, I didn't drink that time... (uh huh! that makes me less guilty) :D
Thinking about that, I find it interesting that no matter how opposite we are I can say that my relationship with my mom is the best-est! We fight like sisters, we share stories like friends do (except for some things like those mentioned above ;p) and we understand each other the way a mother/daughter would. I love you mom
Monday, November 8, 2010
Sometimes the shortest messages can be the stuffiest ones. When text messages contain only the name of the person you're sending the message to followed by a question mark, it could mean
a) that person is wondering whether you're active/ available to answer a query or something like that immediately or
b) it implies, "Yohooo... anyone there? need someone to talk to or
c) Call me, like now? or on a lighter note,
d) it could be something positive especially when it's followed by a smiley :)
I don't know with you but if I couldn't seem to find the right words to say and I badly needed someone who'd help me understand what I'm going through, I text my closest friends with "friend?", they'd answer back and the next thing you'll know, you can't stop blabbing about the thing that bothers you and in no time you'd feel some sort of relief...
That's why I love my friends so much. They know me when I don't feel okay or am I just a give away? Either way, I love them.